Assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something.
Trust.
This word has come to mean so much to me. It's the shortest and best summary of everything that God has been teaching me over the past couple of months, maybe over my entire life. The lesson has been a hard one in learning. Sure, I believe that God is sovereign. I believe that God's Word is truth. I know that He will give me strength when I'm weak. But He still asks me again, "Do you trust Me?"
When I take away your support and remove from you all that you hold dear, do you trust Me?
When I place you in a situation where all you can do is sit still and wait, do you trust Me?
When everything that you thought was to be your future crumbles down, do you trust Me?
When your heart aches and you cry out to me and hear nothing in response, do you trust Me?
When you reach the end of what you are able to bear and fall down under your burden, do you trust Me?
I haven't yet learned to answer all of these questions. I know what my answers should be. I can quote you scripture after scripture in support of what I "know" to be true. But can I answer these questions in deed? I don't know. Life has changed drastically for me. At times my heart longs so for life as it was that I feel I could burst. God asks me again, "Do you trust Me?"
Do I? Lord, help me! I must!
I surrender my rights.
I surrender my dreams.
Break my heart for what breaks Yours.
Teach me to see with Your eyes.
I trust You.
You, who loved me enough to die for me.
You, who loves me enough to live in me.
You, who promises that I will never walk this life alone.
I trust You.
"Do you trust Me?"
Wow. We just had a lesson about this in youth class Bible study last night. I understand what you are saying. I have felt the same way (still do often) - the head knowledge of how you SHOULD feel....but, really trusting God with your whole, entire heart & being? Do we really? I totally feel you, girl. We did a cool exercise in class last night though. We all had to write down a fear (or more than one if we wished) on a scrap of paper & then we taped them to balloons and let them go into the sky - to God. It was a really cool exercise. :) Anyways. Love ya girl! ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteThis is a lesson I continue to learn (: Glad that you're here and we get to journey together for a little while! -Emily
ReplyDeleteYou are one of the loveliest girls I know... inside and out and I just love these posts that come from your heart and they always encourage me... always. As a wise woman I know once said "When you speak from the heart... you reach a heart" ♥ Love you!
ReplyDeleteAmen!!! I love you, Darlin'! Praying for you today (as always!!!) -- do you know how much of an encouragement you are in my life? ;^)
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